Tuesday, May 3, 2011

Well I'm Still here...


I have a wonderful girlfriend who has depression issues and I help control her issues with her family and keep her spirits up although she is not medicated.

She has known for several years about my suicidal thoughts and manic episodes and is very in control of my meds.

Currently I am on 1500 mg of Depakote CR and it seems to work fine. That is until I miss a day and begin to have the shakes. My drinking doesn't help either. (Any advice on this would be welcome).

Sleep is my main issue. Someone suggested Valerian Root and others said Melatonin. ???

What is going on with my brain? Why do I constantly think about doing bad things to people with sharp objects?